Oh you're so big....Ah thanks!

I used to be a healthy 62kg's i walked every other day and i watched what i ate (sometimes). Basically i looked after myself and i felt pretty good about how i looked. When you're pregnant the hormones are racing, things are changing and at times you may not feel to good about how your bodies developing, well i had moments like that anyway.

Once the whole pregnancy sunk in i was so excited to start showing, i was disappointed to find out that this probably wasn't going to be until about 5 months. Was i the only one who didn't know you don't start showing straight away? Anyway, it was almost like clock work around 20 weeks i started to get a distinct bump, instead of that, "is she pregnant or just put on a few kilo's" kind of look which i had been sporting for the previous few months. It was very exciting. I was happy and very proud of my little bump.

I took that approach that i think a lot of mummies to be take, "I'm pregnant, i'm going to enjoy it and eat what i want". Don't get me wrong I tried to be as healthy as i could during my pregnancy, but there were definitely times (maybe to many) where the cupcake, chocolate, fast food cravings took over. Those damn cravings are so strong and they just get stuck in your head until you eventually give in.

Around 30 weeks my feelings toward my bump started to change a little, when i looked in the mirror only sometimes did i see a beautiful pregnant lady and the other times i saw a pregnant lady who used to have a good body and who shouldn't have eaten that third cupcake. I was starting to get pretty big, and didn't every man and his dog like to tell me! As i was saying, those pregnancy hormones can make you a little sensitive and emotional and almost on a daily basis i had people saying, "wow you're so big", or "how far along are you, oh really, you'll go early" and my favourite "are you having twins, haha". Well, i didn't find that very funny. It made me feel very self conscious, how was i supposed to look at 30 weeks pregnant? It upset me, it made me feel as though i was bigger then i should have been.

Now i'm sure these people didn't mean to upset me with their comments, I'm sure they didn't even realise i cared. At the end of the day you wouldn't tell an over weight person they looked big so why is it ok to say it to a pregnant women who may also be struggling with their new body image. For me these comments i got daily unfortunately played on my mind for the rest of my pregnancy, and at times i felt quite down about my beautiful bump.

Having a happy moment with my bump

Time chugged by and at 40 + 4 days i gave birth to an extremely healthy 10lb 3oz baby boy. If there is one thing i learnt from this experience it's that every pregnant women is different, you are growing an amazing life inside your body, don't let anyones comments affect your experience of carrying that amazing miracle. Looking back now i wish i hadn't of cared so much, my next pregnancy i will be rocking my bump and if someone says to me, "wow you're big", i'll just say "i know, isn't it fabulous"!


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